It’s so easy for me to second-guess my motivations and decisions. I’m really struggling with what my next steps should be. I’ve talked to a few people about what I want to do next at work, but I wonder if there’s even a place for me at this company.
I find myself being more accepting of situations at work than I probably should be. I think I do this because it’s incredibly rare that I can create change or fix a situation by pushing back and expressing my displeasure with it. Too many things are moving out of my influence, and I feel like I’m getting stuck with the short end of the stick. I’m not sure what to do with these conflicts I’m experiencing. I’m pretty convinced that no matter what company I worked for, I’d have to deal with the same junk, and it could be worse.
I’m working hard to keep myself out of certain situations in my personal life too. I think I tend to put myself into places that I’m “expected” to be in, whether I actually want to do so or not. I’m beginning to feel that sometimes choosing to do nothing at all is better than choosing to take an action that puts you in a situation you should not be in.
And of course it’s going to rain all fucking week.
Update: I just ran across a post on Lame excuses for not being a Web professional on 456 Berea St. This fits for me rather well.
1 comments:
I love the lame excuses site - especially having just come from a "brainstorm" where the account manager made me want to crawl out of my own skin.
But learning not to - that's just a part of the game. Digital or not, that's life.
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